Connections...

Hello everyone!

It just blows my mind how fast weeks go by. Especially working in the office and in an area. I cant comprehend it. I dont think i want to either. God's time just amazes me, and i feel like im on it!

So, one of the biggest blessings ive had this week was going to a LA's home. The grandma takes care of her granddaughter because she is special needs. If there is one thing i miss about school, it would be my program and being able to work so closely with special needs people. I've felt so deprived lately, and seriously feel like a piece of my heart was missing. Well, when i saw this adorable little girl, i just melted and couldnt stop thanking Heavenly Father. He knew i needed her. She is such a joy to me. We were sharing our message, and i turned to her, grabbed her in my arms and looked her in the eyes and told her that she has a heavenly father, that he loves her so much and is so proud of her, and that she is His, and always will be. I promised her blessings, and just couldnt help but cry! I LOVE being able to feel a glimpse of that PURE love that our Heavenly Father has for us! We are HIS! We will always and forever be His. It doesnt matter what we do, we are His and he loves us to the end.

So, working in the office has its definite perks. Other than working so close to president and the AP's, i'm in the know all for all the secrets. President has a love and passion like no other for this work. I remember saying to him one time "Don't you ever feel stressed or get exhausted?!" He said "Yeah, but i just love this work! It makes me so happy!" His countenance is unreal. The only downside to the office, is you get nominated for things, like singing at zone conference FOR ELDER GIFFORD NIELSEN (EXCLAMATION POINT) if you didnt watch conference, you wont get that last part... But sheesh. What a task. im excited though! I feel like my voice has seriously progressed since being on a mission so lets pray it gets a lot better between now and next tuesday! He's also coming to our ward on Sunday, so im excited to here from him and be able to be guided by yet another man from God.

So, Becky has been on my mind a lot. I have many people praying for her here and im hoping to call the Boston temple tomorrow and get her on the prayer role here, as well as Dallan. Sometimes as a missionary i wish that everyone and everything would stay the same back at home, but that would just be limiting everyone from their God given potential. I know that despite the lasting effects of the accident, Becky will grow to a greater capacity. She will love, she will cherish, she will appreciate, and she will prosper in such greater ways. Her journey will be long and hard, pain will be her new companion, but i know she will not only be okay, she will be incredible. She will be happy. God has trusted her, Trent, and all the family with this huge trial. He trusts us! He trusts her! What a beautiful thing to know. She, and all of the fam are in my prayers. Mom, keep my posted on Dallan too. Remember that if he ever gets worse, you can call President and let me know!

Yesterday i heard the most amazing quote. I was fasting with such a fervent questions and purpose. It's no secret that im taking my mission transfer by transfer, and really moment by moment. I've been given the task to pray for what is best for me and my body. I was told i needed to be open real and honest, and let everyone know how bad things really are. So here we go. They're pretty bad. I feel so tired, so nauseated, so weak, migraines on the regular, and back pain like i have never felt before. It's safe to say it hurts worse than it did when i first broke it. Im falling a part. BUT! I AM SO HAPPY. I feel so much peace! I feel that all will truly be well. The quote "All will be alright in the end. If it isnt alright, it isnt the end" has seriously kept ringing in my ear. My body isnt alright right now, and so i know that it isnt the end! I was promised the gift of healing, and i know God doesnt lie. I love the peace i feel in each moment. I love the stong assurance that i just need to trust Him. His way will always be better, and i feel like i am gaining more and more trust! I love this journey im on. It is mine, and because of it others are being blessed too. I love being able to testify of the Atonement, and to promise people everything will be okay. We don't know whattomorrow brings, and i definately dont know what His plans are for me, but i know that if i just trust and do what i can, it doesnt matter, because it will be alright. It will be incredible. It will be perfect for me.

On a lighter note... so we sisters have 850 miles per month, and being the end of the month, we were down to small numbers with district meeting in the agenda and needing to take me to the office. it just wasnt going to work. so we call this crazy cute old lady who REALLLLLY  didnt want to take us but we begged and begged. We showed up and guess what. her car wouldnt start. So we drove half way, then decided to park the car and run. Yeah, the one day i wore my kitten heels. So we ran, and we ran, and we ran. In the freeeeezing cold, in heels, on the highway. It gave me a greater appreciation for Folora when she ran to her baptism! Man we couldnt stop laughing. Exact obedience brings miracles, and we were bound and determined to not go over our miles. At the end of the day, we had .2 left. Holllerrrr. Another crazy story is once upon a time we are eating at bishops house, when we get interrupted by a phone call. Nicole says "mom its karen amann" and it doenst even click with me. An hour later, we put it together! Thats only one of the 5 connections i have with this ward... Becky Cambells brother is in this ward too! Nutts how small the mormon world is.

Well, it's about that time i express my sappy love for you all. I love you people!!! This church is so true, because it is HIS. I love the order in it, and i love learning more and more about it each day. I hope you all are recognizing the blessings in your life as you grow more and more obedient to His will!

Loveeee
sister cloward