Giving My All

Dear ALL!

 

My heart is oh so full. I don't think Heavenly Father could possibly pour in any more love in it. One of the greatest things i have come to learn on this mission, is my worth and the love that is mine. I have so much confidence, not in myself, but in my God. I know He is shaping me. I know I am His, and I am in His care, even in His arms. I feel them constantly around me. I feel my hand constantly being gently pulled forward. I hear His constant whispers that He is proud of me, He loves me, He is helping me, and His angels are all around. I hear Him telling me of my beauty, that each day i am becoming even more beautiful, and that He is grateful that i am the means in helping others become more beautiful. I am constantly made aware of the knowledge that His will will come about, if i continually give Him my heart. My potential is great. My worth is divine. My beauty is pure. My love, is simple but yet so profoundly strong. The Lord is shaping me, and though it is one rough process, i keep telling him "shape on!" I marvel at who He is ALLOWING me to become. I marvel at the growth that has taken place within a short 6 months. I am so in debt to my maker it's unreal. Even when i feel i have little to give, i know He is proud of what i am giving. I loved what David Bednar shared about the widows mite. I pray that continually, i am the widow. I do not have an abundance of strength to give. I do not have an abundance of really anything to give. But, i am giving my all and I know Heavenly Father is aware of that. I'm giving every last bit i have to give every moment i can, and for that, He is blessing me with the ability to continually give and never run out.

 

So, did anyone feel a trend in conference? This morning in comp study i asked sister wray "sooo.. whatd you feel hounded in conference about?" "i feel like i need to go home and get married and have kids" "yeah, me too". we went back in our notes and seriously in like 8 different speakers we have written "being a mom is more important than anything in the world" oh the laughs. in due time heavenly father, in due time.

 

Another thing i felt impressed my mind a lot was my covenants. they are so so incredible. im basically going to spend the next week studying and understanding them more. which brings to another thing we heard a lot. Search, study, pray, fast, THEN ask. How often do we skip some of these steps and just expect our father to tell us? I learned this week that Heavenly Father stays silent for a reason. It's because some of our greatest growth comes from making our own decisions. He trusts us to, and if we make the wrong one, He'll speak up. We must always do our part and never expect Him to do it all. I love that. I love that we hold such a great responsibility.

 

Well, This gospel is just so beautiful. My heart is so full. I don't know where my journey on this earth will lead me, but one thing i am sure of, my path is steady and my guide is reliable. I have complete trust in my Master, and His will, i pray, will be done.

 

I love my Lord, He is my all.

 

Sister Cloward